Temporary Disturbia

Something doesnt feel right. Dunno if its some kinda doubt creeping in or just a variation of it or what. But I’m feeling funny. I think I’m feeling slack. And this dumb shit happens everytime I try be nice to my body and sleep more. But now its catching up with my sanity.

I don’t feel like I’m doing enough again. I thought with doing the Follow the Flow videos regularly it’d help. But the feeling I’m feeling is not a foreign one. Its the one i felt when I was back home, and didn’t know the next step.

Part anxiety. Part inadequacy. ALL BAD !!

But its cool. Cos I know better than to just crumble and break apart at the seams. Gotta challenge myself. Its no longer enough to just write and post up a video everyday. I need to do more. For me and for anyone who cares I guess.

Its step your game up time. Which when I think of it is my favourite time of the year. I always suprise myself. Like when I first started forcing myself to write at least one verse a day, then three, then five I felt awesome. I’m happy at five, now I think I need to start tieing it altogether more.

I’m excited.

It always feels better to write through these feelings. Now I’m ready to make necessary changes and adjust both my course and my speed accordingly.

Peace,Love & a hardy har har to the suckas who settle for mediocre….

TehN Diamond