Tryna find calm in the storm…
Feeling fucken foul today. Dont ask me why, cos I dont know the answer.
But lets delve…
Im looking at my face like I dont own it. Its frowing at me, Its scowling at me and the whole time I wanna fucken know why he’s so mad..
“Why you so frustrated fuck face ?!!”
“Why cant you just get your shit together and smile already”
Funny shit is I’m not even a tiny bit in….the real drama and the stress has yet to come….or is this it…is this the big test.
Last night someone said to me that I’m a failure…and I can’t stand that cos I dont view myself as a failure. So yea I didn’t make it through college….but I didn’t want to and I couldnt. Maybe I’m a fool for that….mayeb if I’d just followed the rules I’d be fine…
But would I ?
HUH ?
What are the rules truly worth. Wat is their purpose. Are they not just there to keep us in line and stop us from flying higher….higher than you higher than all the bullshit.
I don’t care what anybody says, but I care about how what you say makes me feel. And maybe that too is my problem…I feel…I feel too much.
Let’ just wait and see now.
Let’s just pause for a minute.
Yea…lets just breathe.
I’ll be fine. More than fine. More than divine. I will shine.
Tryna find peace in a restless world is hell…but there’s heaven at the end so I might as well.
Tehn
