The thing about me is….

THE THING ABOUT ME IS….

See over the past few months, well since I’ve been back home really….I’ve come under a lot of fire. mainly centred around just why I shouldn’t be pursuing the path I am. nobody seems to see the reasons why i should, or at least they don’t get the reasons why I should…

I mean I totally get the risk factor.

I get thats its not, well normal as far as the things you should strive to do in your life..

Or is it ? See my thing is this, all my life I’ve done the things I was good at. Why ? Because its more fun and ultimately more rewarding when you ARE good at what you do. In most cases I’ve got to be the best or at least among the best.

I’m not the best at what i do now, not just yet, but i’m good at it…I love it and I’m good at it. Its hard to explain something like this when you’re not the best yet….or not showing the signs that society expects to see…..you know…the money…the security teh stability….the recognition….but that all takes time and persistence.

I think thats why I wrote “I Can’t Do It”>

Its tempting to throw in the towel and just go the easy and familiar route…but not if you truly believe….but not just believe you do something about it….and for me when I hear an objection or an excuse why i shouldn’t do that which I know I CAN do….I only wanna try harder.

And only because I know in my heart of hearts that there is a spot for me if I only I’m willing to stick it out.

I see my friends and just people I now who’ve finished their degrees…and the ones who are actually gettinga head are still the ones who enjoy what they do….who found their sweet spot and are working itf or all its worth….the ones who just did what they were meant to….they’re not happy….they’re unsure…I cant be that.

I need to make like Jay in “Feelin’ It” and live my life to the limit and love it a lot…

Unfortunately that feels almost like a crime.

Who knows ? Maybe I’m wrong and maybe I’ll fail but the thing is I dont plan on failing…and when I look at my life and look at myself I know that things closest to my heart and closest to my sweet spot have never failed me.

So what if the stakes are higher and the road is long and hard….I say bring that shit one.

You only live once. The real problem in the equation is the money I guess. Those who love you worry if you don’t have it and those who hate you worry when you do have it. Me ? I’m not worried because it’ll come..I dont crave it….I damn near loathe it….but its part and parcel of success in this crusty world….and I can accept that.

But it’ll never be the focus. I’m chasing happiness.

Peace, Love & a LAZ-E-BOY….

TehN