The Rethink….

You know Im thinking I may just go to sleep on this shit for a while…not the blog but the music….and not the music as such….but just the tryna get out there so hard….

If I’m really honest I dont feel ready or even nearly good enough. I hate that I’m even saying it but a part of me is thinking it….when i did HIGHER LEARNING….I knew exactly who I was…or at least Ihad a nice idea….I was The Student of the Game….now being home and being on the grind and starting from scratch and not having my circle around me….im feeling most lost than a loser….I guess im just in need of a win…

On top of that i know this feeling. Its self pity and it makes me hate it way more. I dont wanna be just avergae or just a flash in the pan….I wanna be great. I wanna be amazing. I wanna be diverse but solid in my being….I wanna know me again. And I wanna deliver.

So often it just feels like im shooting in the dark..praying…hoping and wishing that I land something….

fuck this is bullshit….I gotta get in a better space….and im just not near it right now.

How to move forward when all I wanna be is BACK….back where I felt right….back with the right peeps….back in MY zone…..im feeling foreign and damn near alien.

ITS RIDICULOUS>

I may just fall back and hone this hsit harder….or at least order some mojo on ebay or something