Getting by…and luving the f-outta it !!

“This morning I woke up…feeling brand new…I jumped up….feeling my highs and my lows….and my soul….”

Most days don’t feel like this. And by feel like this I mean extra extra GOOOOOD !!

Had a young epiphany last night. All doubts aisde, I came to realise that I AM WORTHY…

…of your love.
…of your time.
…of my ability.
…of my future success.

WHY ?

Because I’m me and today thats beautiful. I been taking it for granted lately…but now all that sad talk is late. dont get me wrong though I may spazz on myself every now and again…but damniy its allowe. Gotta get down to get back up and thats whats important.

So now its grind season….ALL OVER AGAIN !!

DownX…please turn my levels….mama…hold on I’m coming for ya….lil’ sis….I SEE YOU….so feel me…..

Got a gig tonight and I love that. Its in Stellenbosch…so im treking out there in like an hour.

I’m out.

Peace,Love & lavalamps….got download some Charles Hamilton while u at it.

TehN

Gavin Boyd owns the rain right now…

So its just started pouring in good old Cape Town…..GREAT !!

Not really. But I’m chatting to Gavin Boyd and dude just sent me the most banging jaz groove ass beat….

I love it.

To the point you other beatmakers need to be ashamed right now.

HA HA HA

Peace. Just Peace.

I hate to RANT but umm…

OKAY !! Damn you shitty ass slow poke…wont download shit all…..INTERNET !!! I seriously can’t stand it….its bad enough Im out here paying more than I should for a less than less than dope connection….

I got things to get done dont i…unfortunatelya lot of those things are interweb dependant…..and right now all I can do is blog…check my facebook….and twitter my damn pants off….but thats not the important shit…

I got emails to send out.

HOld on while I bitch slap this modem a lil’ something….

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Okay. Im calm. But I’m not happy. Far from it. Something better and give and soon….cos’ im over all of this.

ummm….Peace,Love & stuff….regardless of what my mood like,

Fresh outta Zimbabwe – JackPott

If you’ve read my post about I Had A Dream then you know why its so important for me to shine some light on the other folk I know from Zim who are taking this road less travelled and trying to make something of it….

The music biz is hard and its ugly….it takes a lotta heart and passion….but the thing is for some of us quitting just aint an option, there’s too much love in it and too much to be gained just from writing that right song for the moment.

I had the pleasure of growing up with this young fella…and in fact I dont think I’ve even seen him since my 18th birthday…aka Survivor Series 1. – so its been awhile but im gald to see him pushing it…and all the way over in Singapore no less…just goes to show that no matter where we are as Zimbos we shine hard.

JackPott as long as I’ve know him has always been an entertainer….kid was crazy with the dancing….and now we got music from him.

So do me a favour and check out his page on YouTube>….tell him who sent ya.

We’ve been kinda slack on it but dont be shocked when we hit you with the collab. soon and very soon.

Peace,Love & co-dependence….just depending

TehN

The Rethink….

You know Im thinking I may just go to sleep on this shit for a while…not the blog but the music….and not the music as such….but just the tryna get out there so hard….

If I’m really honest I dont feel ready or even nearly good enough. I hate that I’m even saying it but a part of me is thinking it….when i did HIGHER LEARNING….I knew exactly who I was…or at least Ihad a nice idea….I was The Student of the Game….now being home and being on the grind and starting from scratch and not having my circle around me….im feeling most lost than a loser….I guess im just in need of a win…

On top of that i know this feeling. Its self pity and it makes me hate it way more. I dont wanna be just avergae or just a flash in the pan….I wanna be great. I wanna be amazing. I wanna be diverse but solid in my being….I wanna know me again. And I wanna deliver.

So often it just feels like im shooting in the dark..praying…hoping and wishing that I land something….

fuck this is bullshit….I gotta get in a better space….and im just not near it right now.

How to move forward when all I wanna be is BACK….back where I felt right….back with the right peeps….back in MY zone…..im feeling foreign and damn near alien.

ITS RIDICULOUS>

I may just fall back and hone this hsit harder….or at least order some mojo on ebay or something

Feeling goood….feelin oh so GOOD !!

Now despite what the subject says I dont feel good….I DID. But not now. But before I even get to that here’s why i did feel good…

Im getting shit done.

1. Found a studio. PHAT !!

2. Found a killer nuts producer….mostly because he approaches his beats the way I approach my own tracks….it could be a match made in heaven.

3. Im feeling a resurge in the inspiration stations….so my brains really ready…and i aint even high. WOW. not really WOW…but good to know.

But it all came tumbling down cos I’ve got some dumbness stuck in my left eye. Where’s my mum at when I need to blow the thingy out my eye….so drat and double drat for that.

Otherwise its been a rad day…im getting used to Cape Town….next things next they best get used to me.

Got a show coming this weekend in Stellenbosch…somehow. But its feeling it shal be good….im gonna make a concerted effort to extort someone into filming it…..

Oh yeah more good shit today….the producer is from Zim and has a vision….on top of that dude might be in the business of helping shoot some video….maybe not I HAD A DREAM cos im tryna make that SOOOO OH-FISH_ALL you gotta say it like you see it to really feel me…

peace,love and long legged lovelies for my pretty pretties with the jubblies (huh ?)…yea me too

Tehn is OUT !!

No Baby…No Babies….Thx.

What a week. Got to spend it with my girly girl. Thats never wrong. Its been a while. Gave her a taste of babysitting the crazy babyness that is my two little cousins….

Good times though.

But alas now its time to get back to business. Yea thats right, im on my busy ness…..

As you do know or do not know Im back in CT…..loving it loving it loving it….the weather’s gone all London-Town on us and I’m not even mad at that at all.

Thought I’d post my shit to do for the week….maybe if I know you know what Im meant to be doing I’ll actually do it. Procrastination is actually at an all time HIGH round here….so forgive me. Im tryna find my funk.

SHIT TO DO THIS WEEK….

1. Record that newness and put the people out their damn misery….SEE I THINK ABOUT YOU !!

2. Meet up with dude for show this weekend….also try not to be a pompous fucker if shit doesnt go according to plan.

3. Write a frigging song for pete’s sake…even if it sucks….just write a shitty song and work from there…..worked for MIMS !!

4. Quit being such a dick head.

5. Link up with the Dream Team in the making….and get things on the move for the June show….

6. Get a life.

So its gonna be a busy week. DO NOT DISTURB !!

Peace,Love & lil’ junk in ya trunk…

P.S. Some dudes totally jacking/jocking my fresh on myspace….its gay but wateva. we cant all be YOU !!

Cold Perfection

This is something I’ve been working on for a while now…its been a mental note to self for a minute.

Upon reflection I realise even more than b4 that Im a dickhead. Not so much now as before…circa 2006. But still once u’ve been something you always will.

But in order to attain perfection we must keep pushing…while looking back to assess and reassess ourselves and those who are extensions of ourselves.

Today I looked back and realise the dick in me. In fact I didnt just decide to look back…by the good grace’s of all things bigger than you and I…I was afforded the opportunity to look back. Im grateful.

Not proud of it. But glad I know it. It gives me options. Be the dickhead or be the other guy. Choice is nice. Its freeing.

So now my attitude is move in the one direction….thats faster and farther….to seek perfection….EVEN if it breeds imperfection….AND THAT RIGHT THERE IS COLD PERFECTION.

I’m only tryna be human and for some reason that takes time.

Peace,LOve & Perfection….of teh cold variety.

TehN

The 5ive right NOW.

1. Adele – Chasing Pavements

Cos I’m chasing pavements right now and this young lady just got that voice….mmmm

2. T.I. – No Matter What

Cos being under house arrest sucks balls and ass….damnit I gotta just get my friggin’ license and grow the fuck up….shits killin me…oh well….but at least its in my power to remedy this dilemma….but then once I get the thing…where do i even go ?

3. Kid Cudi – Embrace The Martian

….cos as far as my fam’ think I’m in a daze and not on this planet…but I cant help that I believe I have music the world needs to hear and would gladly pay for….just gimme time. i can make this work and i know it….it has to be real !!

4. John Mayer – No Such Thing

Cos my lil’ bro just reminded that there is no damn such thing as real thing….just a lie you gotta rise above….AMEN

5. Silence

Cos in the silence of the night I’ve learnt to find such peace. And through all the in between shit…IM HAPPY.

Drat and Double Drat……

Fuck weak ass internte connections….that shit needs to be against the law and soon.

I was really hoping to be able to upload a demo version of some of the new stuff I’ve been working on….and silly me I got super excited about it too.

Just sat here an hour only to have shit fail right at the end. so that idea is off.

hmmm….what to do now ?

Well I think im gonna just get some damn sleep.

The last three days of my life I’ve flipped my sleep pattern and committed to sleeping all day and staring my days at 4pm…

Only cos Im hell more productive once the sun goes down and I’ve found the days in H-town to be nothing worth stayin awake for. So its 9am now and an hour till my bedtime…

So far outta three cycles of this I’ve banged out three new tracks.

AHHHHHHH !! But I cant share ‘em….and where’s the fun in that ?

Heading back down to Cape Town this week to meet up with my sweet sweet lady….but it aint all pleasure and good times, Im gonna be lining up a show and organising a little event for al my students of the game down there.

Check for me round early June…..should be a groove and a gas. I’ll let ya know when I get them songs up.

Peace to the out !!